I am so exhausted; I shouldn't be blogging at all. But it's been for-ev-er since I've posted, so just til the little clock sez 2am.
Been going to the Lovecraft filmfest ever since Thursday. So nice to have gl. around; it's better with company. Add to my list of "flavors of loneliness" (Huh. Ought to post that here...): the loneliness of not having someone to share the experience with. The original version of this was going to plays at Reed, and walking away after the performance by myself. But then there's also not having someone to share a sunset with, or a good raincloud.
There are ways in which it has been a lonely year; what with J's nine months of hell. Now I've got people to socialize with, and I'm filling all my time. I'm hungry for company. The question is posed: what's my natural state? How much am I a solitude person? It's so hard to know. I can be fine on my own; but how much of that is turning off the desire because there's no one around to sate it? Am I actually a person who constantly wants company, but only occasionally in his life has people who can satisfy? Or am I a person who's most at home in solitude, but who's going through a wonderful binge because this is what the first flush of new friendship is like?
Other big news: the laptop has arrived! Yay! Thing is, with all the film-going, I've not had much time to play with it. Although, "play" is really a word that's being projected upon me from my excited pals. Mostly I view this machine as a tool; one similar to the work horse, but specialized for certain functions. Details to mop up: need a carrying case; need to get Word X up and running for real; need to fiddle with my old Word documents, see if I'm going to lose formatting. ...Ooh, it is so pretty sitting on the dining room table. Let's all hope for great things...
I am SO in the mood to get back to work on my Lovecraft movie. Realized recently that while I've been obsessing over how to get the tentacles to move right, for most of the film the tentacles are asleep -- a non-mobile model of the Elder Things (or the Elders, as I'm calling them for short) will do me for the vast majority of shots. I should do a break-down of motion, looking at my storyboards again, to see what I really, actually need.
Furthermore, although I still need to film more footage of my actors, for the scenes leading up to the cave, I have plenty of shots already that I could begin applying the "lava man" process to. The real issue here -- do you see it coming? -- is time. I just need to make the decision to sit down and put in some hours.
But that raises questions about what I'm doing with myself this month. Still in the lovely blur of spending as much time as possible with gl. before she gets a job. Wonder if there's something I should be doing that could help that process. Hey, must remember to mention to her that Leopoldo says not one, but two web-based instruction companies are located right here in the area. Unfortunately, he didn't know their names. But I'd bet WebCT is one, and if you already know the names of such companies, a web search couldn't be that hard.
But that's an aside... I was going to say something about planning a month. A strategy I've used fairly successfully before is to identify a theme for the month (e.g. writing or movie-making), and then to look at the arc of four weeks together. The first week is probably going to be dedicated just to getting ready: clearing away outstanding cleaning and bill-paying work, getting the sleep schedule more or less going, beginning to get back in the habit of walking. During week 1, failures are to be expected; you're just getting momentum going.
During weeks 2 and 3, you can really get something done. ...However, if you put in a really work-heavy week, it can lead to alternating between "on" and "off" weeks, because you feel like you need to reward yourself with a rest after the big push. Week 4 might also be designated for taking care of house business. Week 1 can just be about waking up and walking, depending on how bad off the house situation is.
It's good to start all over again with the next month, rather than trying to plow along endlessly with the routine. It can also be good to think about the theme for the quarter; it may be more important than the theme of the individual month. Note that a full week of nothing-but-cleaning is perhaps only needed once per quarter, not every month. When you do a major cleaning, afterwards you mostly just have to do maintainance cleaning.
So look at me, it's 2:18. Didn't I say just til 2am? I should know better. ...And worse, I'm tempted to put up a still of one of my early Elder models. It's all pointy, and very rough hewn -- the final will look much better (I hope) -- but I just have to be able to show off a little of the work that I did earlier this year.
Been going to the Lovecraft filmfest ever since Thursday. So nice to have gl. around; it's better with company. Add to my list of "flavors of loneliness" (Huh. Ought to post that here...): the loneliness of not having someone to share the experience with. The original version of this was going to plays at Reed, and walking away after the performance by myself. But then there's also not having someone to share a sunset with, or a good raincloud.
There are ways in which it has been a lonely year; what with J's nine months of hell. Now I've got people to socialize with, and I'm filling all my time. I'm hungry for company. The question is posed: what's my natural state? How much am I a solitude person? It's so hard to know. I can be fine on my own; but how much of that is turning off the desire because there's no one around to sate it? Am I actually a person who constantly wants company, but only occasionally in his life has people who can satisfy? Or am I a person who's most at home in solitude, but who's going through a wonderful binge because this is what the first flush of new friendship is like?
Other big news: the laptop has arrived! Yay! Thing is, with all the film-going, I've not had much time to play with it. Although, "play" is really a word that's being projected upon me from my excited pals. Mostly I view this machine as a tool; one similar to the work horse, but specialized for certain functions. Details to mop up: need a carrying case; need to get Word X up and running for real; need to fiddle with my old Word documents, see if I'm going to lose formatting. ...Ooh, it is so pretty sitting on the dining room table. Let's all hope for great things...
I am SO in the mood to get back to work on my Lovecraft movie. Realized recently that while I've been obsessing over how to get the tentacles to move right, for most of the film the tentacles are asleep -- a non-mobile model of the Elder Things (or the Elders, as I'm calling them for short) will do me for the vast majority of shots. I should do a break-down of motion, looking at my storyboards again, to see what I really, actually need.
Furthermore, although I still need to film more footage of my actors, for the scenes leading up to the cave, I have plenty of shots already that I could begin applying the "lava man" process to. The real issue here -- do you see it coming? -- is time. I just need to make the decision to sit down and put in some hours.
But that raises questions about what I'm doing with myself this month. Still in the lovely blur of spending as much time as possible with gl. before she gets a job. Wonder if there's something I should be doing that could help that process. Hey, must remember to mention to her that Leopoldo says not one, but two web-based instruction companies are located right here in the area. Unfortunately, he didn't know their names. But I'd bet WebCT is one, and if you already know the names of such companies, a web search couldn't be that hard.
But that's an aside... I was going to say something about planning a month. A strategy I've used fairly successfully before is to identify a theme for the month (e.g. writing or movie-making), and then to look at the arc of four weeks together. The first week is probably going to be dedicated just to getting ready: clearing away outstanding cleaning and bill-paying work, getting the sleep schedule more or less going, beginning to get back in the habit of walking. During week 1, failures are to be expected; you're just getting momentum going.
During weeks 2 and 3, you can really get something done. ...However, if you put in a really work-heavy week, it can lead to alternating between "on" and "off" weeks, because you feel like you need to reward yourself with a rest after the big push. Week 4 might also be designated for taking care of house business. Week 1 can just be about waking up and walking, depending on how bad off the house situation is.
It's good to start all over again with the next month, rather than trying to plow along endlessly with the routine. It can also be good to think about the theme for the quarter; it may be more important than the theme of the individual month. Note that a full week of nothing-but-cleaning is perhaps only needed once per quarter, not every month. When you do a major cleaning, afterwards you mostly just have to do maintainance cleaning.
So look at me, it's 2:18. Didn't I say just til 2am? I should know better. ...And worse, I'm tempted to put up a still of one of my early Elder models. It's all pointy, and very rough hewn -- the final will look much better (I hope) -- but I just have to be able to show off a little of the work that I did earlier this year.
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